So it seems my plan on how to introduce everyone has gone a little out of wack. That's ok. Don't want to rush it and forget important things just because I'm not in the mood. x3

Anyway, so I'm a cashier at the hardware store where I work. And I have alot of empty time on my hands. Quite alot. So I bought a little tiny notebook that can fit in my vest, and I pull it out and doodle and whatnot when there are no customers around xD Yesterday, I wrote this little drabble and Belial and Fakia, a cute scene that never actually really happened about their first meeting. I like imagining these 'what-if' scenarios with them. I was a bit surprised since it's written from Belial POV, and I never write in first person. O.o Weird, but I still really like it anyway. So anywho, onto business, I titled it Mt. Faith~ 

Mt. Faith

The first time I saw him he was sitting at the furthest table from the doorway in the cafeteria. The presence from someone who's hooved feet couldn't even touch the slick hardwood floor was intense. I watched as boy after boy, assigned table number in grasp, let their eyes fall over that peculiarly violet hair before hurriedly shuffling off in another direction, certain that fortune could not be so harsh.

Every so often the annoyed jabs of my peers would alert me enough to keep moving forward to recieve my table number, but I never ceased my efforts to catch his eye. It was impossible. Like an invisible swarm of butterfly's swirled around him he refused every glance.

But I studied him relentlessly. For as long as the overcrowded line continued to push impatiently forward anyway. I couldn't understand what kind of parent would be cruel enough to send a child like this into an atmosphere where his entire survival rate depended on how well he could fit in.

Through all my piecing together of his unique looks, it wasn't until someone tripped and ripped away the blue velvet curtain that had been pinned up on the mantelpiece of the fireplace by two Bible shaped bookends, did it finally become clear to me. I could easily see the shared hue of his skin and the leftover ashes that had been left behind.

Just as the boys shied away from his table, the girls made it just as clear how far out of his league they were. Even so, I couldn't stop myself from being just a little bit thankful when one brassy red-head decided to make a show of shifting her skirt in front of his table, and in the process ended up knocking over a salt shaker with her hip. Since it was only finally now did he move from the tall, genericly shaped straight backed chair.

I stopped moving completely, focusing everything on just watching as he first awkwardly stepped down before meekly moving around the table to retrieve the offended shaker. I couldn't help but be slightly frustrated for even as my own hair was sticking to my bare back and chest from sweat, he remained entirely concealed in a thick wool sweater.

I studied him as well as I could despite the many inhibitions, and I had to bite my tongue to keep from smiling as he shyly retreated back into his chair and I'd noticed the heavy cloth tugging a bit tightly around his middle. It had been only ten minutes yet there was no doubt in my mind I had found the most adorable creature in the world.

I finally reached the front table where an overenthusiastic blonde with braces greeted me. I tried to mind my manners and greet her in return, but even now I still can't remember what I said in those first few fleeting moments of introduction.

I watched as he distracted himself by digging into the plastic tablecloth with one of his short, sharp claws. My gaze was caught on his fingers, which weren't pudgy at all as one might have expected, but rather, petite like the rest of him, shapely. I imagined what it would be like to touch one of them. What would it feel like? What would it taste like...

These were my first memories at Mount Faith, Christian Summer Camp.

 So over this past week my little sister was competeing down in San Bernardino for her Color Guard championships ( which our team kicks ASS in , by the way ), and of course, I managed to beg my older sister into taking me to the Volks store. x3 Amusingly enough, my dad wanted to come too while my mom stayed back at the Inn. Go figure. ;)

Anyway, is it weird to say the Volks store is exactly what I wanted and nothing like what I wanted at the same time? O.o It was set up very cute and neat, and the sales lady obviously knew about dolls and could answer all my newb-like questions, even giving me a bit of advice when it came to how to face-up my boys ( which I'm extremely nervous about trying ) when I bought some of gloss and spray ( SOOOO happy they sold it there! ). Everything was really pretty and cute and yes I was smiling like a dork the entire time I was looking around. I was only initially annoyed because their MSD clothing section was tiny compared to the SD selection, and I know I probably would have ended up buying an outfit for one of my guys had there been something suitable. But of course, I understand they only had so much space, so I really can't blame the store.

No, what irked me was the store's policy on other dolls. I know, I KNOW, it's not something I should complain about. And really, I DO understand why a store that sells Volks dolls would request customers not to bring in dolls from other companies. So I respectfully left Fakia behind in the car ( and freaked out the entire time something was going to happen to him because I'm paranoid about him that way ) and was just going to leave it at that. However, what I thought that made it irksome, was simply the fact that had I been allowed to bring him in, the store probably would have made a $100+ sale that day.

You see, Fakia is my little devil boy, and his greatest talent is playing the violin. I knew from the very beginning I waned to someday get him a violin carrying case. A real one. My sister pointed out exactly that. AN MSD SIZED violin carrying case. Do you know how hard it is to find a good quality, MSD sized violin doll carrying case that actually looks like a violin case, with the hard shell and distinct shape and not that stupid kind that makes it seem like any old instrument could be inside it? I've looked. Alot. It's hard to find. 

So when my sister pointed out the case and my dad said he wanted to buy me one thing, he didn't care how expensive since it would be my birthday gift, needless to say you can tell what I was thinking. HOWEVER, I wasn't sure if the case would be big enough to carry my boy since he's a DOD doll and not a Volks. I'm fairly certain their height differences are nothing extreme, but at the same time, because I wasn't 100% sure that he would fit and I didn't want to waste $108 on a case that might not even fit, I left the store without it. And I know that had I been allowed to bring him in and just tested out the case to be certain it fit ( I would have brought him right back out to the car after the test if they wanted me to ), I would have bought the case.

*sigh* I know, I'm pretty much ranting about nothing. I think it's just because I still really want that case. Alot. Like....alot. I'm probably going to end up attempting to comission one from DoA in the end since it might even be cheaper anywaym, it's just....a little depressing.

Of course the Volks store wasn't a total loss, Prince came away from it all with a new wig and shoes. Now just to see if the dern things fit...

 Well, here we go. The journal entry I've been dieing to write since it's my first chance to get to introduce my boys, but alas, althou the journal entry I've been dreading since, knowing me, no matter how thorough I try to be, I already know I'm going to miss out on some stuff I'd like to say. Well, such is the way of the world and I'll try not to get too depressed about it since I'm always updating and creating new, more detailed profiles for them anyway which I'll surely be posting here anyway. :3 So! For now these introductions will just be as much information as I can possibly cram into paragraphs, in no particular order and just as I remember things about them. The more neat, profiles will come later. <3

Nazomi

Righty-o. We're starting with Nazomi as he was my very first BJD ever, as well as one of my boys with the longest history with me. He's in the form of a Dream of Doll Homme Kirill, and he was one of the first BJDs that really stole my heart when I started seriously getting interested in the hobby about a year ago ( so...perhaps April/May of 2007 ). I'd remember seeing BJDs when I visited Fanime, and it was actually while I was visiting the Fanime website for 2007 that I saw a thread where someone else was asking questions about the dolls. I snuck a peek in and was instantly consumed by the hobby. xD

I was getting ready to graduate in June of 2007, and alot of changes were happening in my life. As silly as it sounds, one of the biggest changes that I had been going through at the time was that the fact that one my longest internet relationships of about 8 years, was starting to fade away. This was very painful for me as I had alot of emotions invested in this relationship that I just don't think my other friend had. A big part of our friendship had been built through online free style Roleplaying, and it was throughout these Rps that Nazomi was born. Nazomi is my first created homosexual character and the one character that I know I can credit for bringing me so strongly into this hobby, and thus, into the wonderful new friendship I have now.

I knew that since this relationship was ending, and that Nazomi was my absolute favorite character I had ever created, that if I was going to get a BJD, it was going to be him. It only made the job that much easier that Kirill looked exactly like him. xD So I began to save up, and he was finally mine as a graduation/18th birthday gift from family and friends. Even though he was in a relationship with a character that wasn't created by me, Seto, I knew I would also have to bring home his lover as well someday. That has yet to happen ( Seto, who has since been renamed Sethos by me as his character has grown and changed so I don't think it counts as 'stealing' him anymore ), but it's definately in plans for the future. 

Now, finally getting on to who Nazomi actually is xD Nazomi's full name is Nazomi LoveJoy. He is a Panda Demon, a different species than that of a Human, and he can take on three forms, a human-based life form, a panda form, and his Demon form. Most of the time, for simplicity's sake, he is within his Human form as any Demon's Demon form is all but banned, and the animal form is saved for certain situations such as if he is feeling particularly weak, in private, around those he feels comfortable with, etc. Demons are a species I created for my novel Game of Chaos where alot more of the Demon/Human dynamics are discussed much further in detail and I'll probably post a link to it later. Nazomi is Italian, but as of late I think he's trying to hint there may be more to his heritage he doesn't quite know about yet.

Nazomi likes to hide his true age from me, but I highly suspect he's between the ages of 12 and 14. He can't possibly be any older than that. Getting into Nazomi's personality, to say it bluntly, Nazomi is vain a little bastard. If there's anything he cares more about his relationship with his 20-something year old boyfriend, it's his own beauty.  While Nazomi is not particularly feminine, he has a cold sort of beauty to him that he prides himself greatly in. Pale white skin and blue-black hair with black eyes, he certainly looks his heritage of a Panda Demon, with fuzzy panda ears, tail, sharp claws and little, adorable fangs. 

Nazomi is an absolutely sadist, thriving off the physical pain of others. Fortunately for most, Nazomi's biggest flaw is that he is not particularly bright, most common sense and simple logistics entirely going over his head. However, despite this, when it comes to weapons, particularly home-made weapons, he is absolutely spot on and he is fierce. He becomes extremely violent very easy, and therefore he doesn't make friends very easily. Self centered and spoiled, the only other person he ever game a damn about is his boyfriend. 

Despite his absolutely snarkiness and wild personality however, beneath it all, Nazomi is still just a young boy. He grew up never knowing either of his parents as his father left his mother and his two older siblings before he was born, and their mother quickly gave up the three children to foster care soon after. As Nazomi grew up however, any information about what actually happened to his brother and sister somehow vanished, and Nazomi was left alone without a family that could put up with him. While he's not hiding a particularly complex or deeper part of him, he certainly tries to cover up his inner innocence that still exists.

~*~

That went longer than I thought it would xD I think I talked a little too much about my background with Nazomi than nazomi himself though. @_@ Either way, he's insisting he get this entire post to himself and I introduce Fakia and Prince within another post so I don't ruin his space. Selfish little boy. But I'll give him what he wants, and so this ends, Nazomi's introduction-though you can certainly bet there's alot more where that came from ;3

So, given that this is my first 'official' post after my introduction, and that this is my Unofficial Dollie Journal, I'm sure it stands to reason that my most logical next choice of action would be to explain who my current BJD family is, and then possibly tell a little bit more about them. And in a perfect world I would do that. However, in a perfect world my whole family would be home and ready for introductions rather than just 3 of the 5, and in a perfect world my boys would be all set up and finished and pretty so I could post their pictures beside their profiles and background/history/etc. 

But of course, this is a not a perfect world. My entire family is not home and I will not be waiting for them to come home before introducing everyone. I also don't think it would be wise to wait until my current boys are all set up nice and pretty considering it's going to take a substantial amount of funds in order to do that, and seeing as I'm just the average poor college student, that's probably not all going to be happening any time soon. 

However, because I am a perfectionist and I simply can't talk about my boys enough, I want to be certain I have their extended profiles already written out and perfected before posting it here, just so I don't miss out on anything of importance. This will probably take some time to write, so therefore, Nazomi, Fakia and Prince will all be making their livejournal debut within my next update. 

So! Where does that leave me now? Why, talking about anything BJD related that's not directly involved with my little guys ( or, my little mohitos as my dad so fondly likes to refer to them as ). And of course, this isn't a whole lot, but there is at least one thing. And that is what I like to refer to as the BJD Fantasy Wishlist of Doom. Yes, this is the wishlist I have created for myself in that should the day ever arise in that I win the $9 million lottery rather than my friend ( true story ), these are the top babes who would be coming home to live with me first. So now, without further ado; the 
BJD Fantasy Wishlist of Doom. 

Dollga Irian *****
Serendipity Yuha *****
Unidoll UH-14 *****
Dollzone Floy *****
Abio Angel ER ****
Angel Region Fair Dan ****
Souldoll OSU ****
SOOM Namu ****
Gomi Doll Sleepy Iru ****
Dollzone Mo ****
Dolkot Dai ***
Luts Delf Chiwoo ***
Dolzone Saka **
Luts Delf Yder **
Nobility Doll Lie **
B&G Sunny **
DIM Achernar **
MNF Woosoo *
Iplehouse Louis *
K-Dolls Kian *
K-Dolls Kill_U *

Ahh, now wasn't that fun! :D It's called the fantasy wishlist of DOOM for a reason. This, as to do, is the most recent and updated version of this list I have. Most likely in the future I will be rearranging it as to who I like more, possibly adding new ones and possibly taking some away, though I become very picky when it comes to who I permanently decide to remove from the list and as it such, only one boy had been taken off. And because I can, I have also decided to give a little bit of insight as to why I chose who I chose. Onward.

Extended BJD Fantasy Wishlist of Doom

 
I give up. Every time I try to write this journal entry something goes wrong. T_T






Mmmm...organized lists. <3 Anyway, just a few things to add on~ Firstly, it's recently come to my attention that Serendepity is probably not going to continue their production anymore, or at the very least, any of their big boys. This honestly makes me cry. T_T Sometimes I get really excited and actually strongly consider bringing the TMNT boys home. However, I would never consider bringing Raph home until I at least knew who Don was going to be. And if the makers of the sculpt I pegged for Don just isn't going to make him anymore, well...I'm out of luck. So that really is rather depressing. I'm sort of hoping that since the Turtle Boys weren't supposed to be coming home ( if at ALL ) until the far off future anyway, that maybe it won't be a completely lost cause in finding a Yuha second hand. I know I can still consider Floy, but even so, I'm not quite sure how I feel about him next to an Irian. I know, I really shouldn't be considering this anyway since I had told myself I didn't want anyone else after my initial 5 member family was complete, but still...it's kind of hard not to imagine. x3

Also, there's no Volks dolls on my list. I feel the need to mention them rather than other company's that I left out because rather than the easily acceptable reasoning of 'I just don't like any of their sculpts', I honestly can't say if that's true or not. Truthfully, I reason their aren't any Volks doll is because I just can't figure them out. @_@ And I know it sounds totally stupid, but I just get so confused between their MSD, SD13 (??) and their SDs. I can't decipher between the sizes ( mostly SD13 and SD ), and I can't figure out WHERE to buy them. I think I understand at least the FCS procedure, but none of those dolls really appeal to me after a long period of time. I did have a thing for F-16 for a little bit, but that died away fairly quickly. The only Volks doll I've ever really lusted over was another DoA member's Lucas, who I still really admire, but it's more of a specific doll kind of love, rather than just the mold overall. I dunno. I would love to look through other Volks dolls, and one might possibly really speak out to me. I haven't looked at the FCS system and choices in quite awhile, and probably will be doing so soon and if one calls to me, you can bet I'll be adding him to the list. But for now, I stay away from Volks. >.<

Alright! So I think I'm rambled on long enough and while I'm dieing to say more, I really think it should wait until my boys get their proper introductions first.  That should be a fun journal entry. >:3

 ~Hello and welcome!~

This is my unofficial BJD livejournal where I will spill out all my hopes, dreams, thoughts, suggestion and otherwise random thoughts to anyone who so cares to read. 

I label this as unofficial since I pretty much know the day will come when I have to rant on about something that's bothering me in my oh-so difficult life, but in the end, due to the fact that I'm pretty much thinking about my dolls, their characters, their stories, etc. 24/7, rest assured the journal entry would end up talking about them in one way or another.

As it is now, I have been slowly collecting my thoughts on how to go about the manner of introducing my three boys, Nazomi, Fakia and Prince, as well as my future handsome additions to the family, Elijah and Sethos. I have quite alot to talk about ( as mentioned, I think about BJDs alot O.o ), so hopefully these first few posts won't be overwhelming. 

So just to give a quick summary about myself, I am an 18 year old college freshman attending the community college in Woodland, California, where I live with my sister who attends UC Davis and our two chihuahuas, Muneca ( which, ironically means 'doll' in spanish ) and Kallie. I've lived here for about 6 months and I work as a cashier, part-time, at the hardware store down the street. I adopted my first BJD as an 18th birthday/graduation gift ( the events were only 2 days apart ), and he was my little moving buddy as I made the big shift of moving out on my own.

 My greatest hobbies and past-times are online freestyle roleplaying ( indeed I will more than certainly rabble on quite a bit about this, as this is how my initial love for BJDs was born ) , drawing ( I've been drawing since I could literally hold a pencil and still pretty much stick to traditional now ), writing and pretending to be an actress/dancer. There are tons of other things I'd someday love to get into such as sewing ( which I'm actually attempting now, except that my skills are less than pathetic ), bead making, cosplay/LARP ( LARP...I still don't quite understand it, but I'm absolutely fascinated by what I have learned so far @_@ ), actually dancing instead of only pretending to, and learning new languages such as Russian, French, Italian and Spanish. My interests include boy-love ( yes, I'm a yaoi lover, yes I do squeal and fangirl and obsess, NO I don't do it in public or on forums ), different cultures, history, animals, and creating new things.

For the most part I am a pretty introverted person, but here on my livejournals it's fun to just let loose a little bit as I'm really not supposed to ramble on like this on forums. Which also reminds me to add that my username is InkyBear on both Resinality and Den of Angels.  

Over the holiday break I get to go home and see my family again, which is nice as I haven't seen them since Christmas. <3 I'll also be going with them down to San Bernardino where my little sister will be competing in Color Guard Championships. While I'm down there, my older sister has also agreed to take me to visit the Volks LA store. Super stoked on that one. x3

If you made it thus far I applaud you. I also hand out cookies.

~Thanks for reading! Please stick around~